So NYE I had a prototypical spirit-visitation type experience. Awoke at 3am--often happens around this time, to a clear sense of presence in the room. I can’t wholly express the experience, the timbre of my voice deepens and feels as if it is coming from a distant point in space. There is a sense of fullness to that presence; then an understanding, there’s a transcendence point that says: some of us are bound to suffer, but conscious suffering transforms us in virtue of taking you beyond yourself. That everything I have endured in recent years is unique in the degree to which I am bound up in this transcendence. Big thanks to pinhead 'n co. for being supportive in terms of our struggles this year!